Transformations

If you didn’t already know, I’m going to school to become a therapist.  You know, the kind that help other people work through their issues.  Shocking?  Perhaps.  Overwhelming?  Definitely.

I’m reading this wonderful book called, On Being a Therapist, by Jeffrey Kottler.  If you’re in a helping profession, I highly recommend it.

Anyway, he wrote something that has really stuck with me for the past week:

“It’s as if some practitioners believe that therapy and ongoing growth and development are for others, but not for themselves…What sort of hypocrites have we become when we ask people to do things that we are unwilling or unable to do ourselves?”  

The first time I read it, I told myself, “Yeah.  Those therapists with major issues should get help for themselves.”

But then I spent a few more minutes hours days thinking about it, and realized that I am one of those hypocrites.  I don’t share my emotions with others.  I shut out my own feelings all of the time.  (a few cocktails might bring out some “truths”, but that’s the extent of it)  How can I possibly expect my clients to share their feelings with me, if I’m unable to do so in my own life?

Basically, this realization shook me to my core and I decided to do something about it.  So for the past 72 hours, I have been sharing.  And I’m exhausted.

I don’t want this blog to turn into my whiny diary, but I do want to open up more.  I’m not sure exactly what that will look like, but I wanted to let you know I am going through some changes and I might write about it from time to time.  I hope that doesn’t scare you.

It scares the poop out of me.

Has anything changed your outlook on life or yourself recently?  If you’re a blogger, how comfortable are you blogging about your real feelings?  

-Mads

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A review of Trader Joe’s unique finds

I buy groceries once a week from Trader Joe’s.  I always buy one novelty item to try.  Sometimes I am blown away, but I have also tasted some big flops.  Here’s my take on my most recent buys…

 

Crunchy Green Beans: Garbage.  A crowd pleaser for people who are kidding themselves.

Pacific Flounder stuffed with crab meat: Mushy texture, delicious flavor.  A great freezer meal for nights when you don’t give a hoot.

Roasted Plantain Chips: Taste like salty cardboard, but I can’t get enough.  Purchased weekly.

Pineapple Salsa: This seems counterintuitive, but you will put it on EVERYTHING.

Spicy Thai Style Pasta Salad: The peanut sauce gums up the inside of your mouth like a fresh coat of spackle.  It’ll go straight from the bowl to the trash can.

Organic Tomato and Roasted Red Pepper Soup: Please, sir, I want some more.  Do yourself a favor and buy some crusty bread to dunk into this deliciousness.

Ezekiel Bread: For when you’ve given up on life.

That’s all for now.

What do you love and hate from Trader Joe’s?

-Mads

What I’m not doing

1. Sitting beneath the glow of the Christmas tree with a warm mug of Schnapps cocoa.

2. Baking holiday cookies while Jonathan plays Christmas music and we laugh about the flour I got on my face.

3. Going on a long walk with Josie while the brisk winter winds nip at my nose.

4. Taking a hot bubble bath with a glass of wine and a few bites of dark chocolate.

5. Christmas shopping.  Or thinking about Christmas shopping.  Or even thinking about maybe someday Christmas shopping.

6. Taking a few seconds to take care of myself, have fun, exercise, or even shower.

7. Writing witty and interesting blog posts.

 

What am I doing instead?  WRITING A PAPER THAT MAKES ME WANT TO RIP MY EYEBALLS OUT OF MY HEAD.  

Happy holidays,

Mads

I am not jumping ship

I promise I’m not abandoning my blog forever.  I’m just in the deep hairy underbelly of finals week.

The good news?  Dressing up as Miss Frizzle of The Magic School Bus was  GREAT idea for my final presentation.

The really good news?  Winter break starts in one week.

The bad news?  I still have an 11 page paper to complete.

The really bad news?  I have eaten a countless number of cookies over the past few days.

Ahh well, I think I deserve all the cookies I can get my grubby little mitts on at this point!  🙂

-Mads

My brain is FRIED

This post brought to you by a hamster who fell off the wheel…

I spent every waking moment this weekend working on a paper.  It is easily the most amount of time and thought that has gone into any of my school assignments ever.  I haven’t bathed in several days, and my body is surviving off of leftover chow mein.  This better be an A.

I am supposed to cook Thanksgiving dinner and run a 5k on Thursday.  HAH!  HAH HAHhahahahahaa  *eye twitch* hahahah *vomit*

This wedding better plan itself.  6 months until “I do” and I have spent approximately 3 days planning.  Uhmm  I’m so glad I’m not a DIY bride, or I would be stabbing myself in the eye with a glue gun right about now.

Parks and Recreation is the only thing keeping me sane right now.  Please enjoy the many faces of Ron Swanson:

Courtesy of the Flying Scotsman. (click to be redirected to original source)

 

-Mads

State of Affairs: Shoe Edition

If you are on Klout and fully understand what it means, can you please explain it to me?  From my understanding, Klout is a website that uses a meaningless algorithm to show your standing in the popularity contest influence among your friends.

In any case, Klout page got the grand idea that i was influential about shoes.  Now, anyone that has seen my shoe collection knows that I could not possibly know anything about shoes due to the sheer number of Old Navy flip flops I keep on hand.

Exhibit A:

My favorite part is that my toes have left a permanent impression. It's like a ghost is wearing them always.

There’s still some hope for me yet, though.  I do wear pumps from time to time and I keep a few on hand.

Exhibit B.

Excuse the awful carpet. We live in a rental.

Mostly I like to wear shoes that are comfortable that can get me from Point A to Point B without causing battle wounds.

Exhibit C:

Suuuuper attractive, right?

Clearly I have a need for some cute shoes that are comfortable enough to do some serious walking in.

Please help me!  Have you seen anything that can fill the void?  What have you bought recently that you can wear everywhere?

-Mads